of beds and rest

yesterday we had another ultrasound. the fluid levels were good, and i was to see the doctor afterward. i sat waiting for the doctor after the ultrasound, and she poked her head in, said, "great, see you next week." and started to leave. i had to stop her because i had questions of course, and when i told her of the pain i'd been experiencing she immediately wanted to put me on the monitor. come to find out, i was having contractions which needed to be stopped. especially since this baby isn't done yet!

the sent me over to the hospital which is just through a walkway, and i was hooked up to another monitor, an IV, and given a shot to stop the contractions. Reid met me there, and we spent the better part of the afternoon in the hospital. they released me on bed rest until at least thursday when i go to Peoria to see the Maternal Fetal specialist again.

i'm kind of upset. having a little pity party for myself. what happens if i need to be on bed rest for the rest of the pregnancy? how will we earn money? we're supposed to close on our house on Friday and i'd hate to think that we already have to worry about not having enough savings to make the mortgage payment until i can work again. i'm speculating. that's not good.

i get so mad at other people for speculating about the what ifs of this situation that doing it to myself isn't going to get me anywhere. i know that i have to pray that the right way to go about this will be revealed to us.

in the meantime, our apartment is far from being packed, and moving day is Saturday. i know that we have help for moving day, but i worry about Reid having to deal with all of this at once. first we have a problem pregnancy, then we decide to go ahead with buying a house and moving, and he's student teaching in the middle of all of it. i think Reid needs some extra prayers right now as he's just totally stepped up as the person who's going to get all of this stuff done. not that i ever doubted him.

i guess i'll try to "rest" now. wish me luck!