a whole new bag

i almost feel like i've had a chance to decompress from this week. it's been such a whirlwind that i'm surprised that tomorrow is Friday. not that i'm the kind of person who usually has a work-week countdown. i don't play that way. i like my job about 98% of the time.

speaking of jobs, i actually had sort of a rough day today. i've been so worried and distraught and distracted for the last few weeks that i finally got caught on a slip-up. i felt so horrible. i'm pretty good at beating myself up for mistakes i make at work. i think it's because it's not MY business, and i hate the idea that i've made things difficult or even just inconvenient for someone else. i hope that i can devote my full attention during the work day to what i'm doing. there's a lot of work to do, and for that i should be thankful. not many people in our industry can say that.

reid has been going over some of the information we were presented with at the end of our visit on Tuesday. thankfully he had the day off of school because of the sub-zero weather, and devoted some of that time to learning more about our baby's condition. he also took me out to lunch and we signed our contracts for the house we're buying at the end of the month.

i never thought i'd appreciate my husband so much but it has been so amazing to be married to reid. i guess i did think of marriage as a sort of "institution" before i was married, but having a relationship with reid combined with our heavenly Father, i feel like i'm wrapped in a big warm fuzzy blanket and never want to leave it. marriage is awesome.

i have an ultrasound tomorrow, one of the 30 something i'll have during the rest of the pregnancy. i pray that they see that the amniotic fluid is good. i pray that i don't get that blank look from the technician. i pray that reid can be there with me. i know that we'll get through this. i'm done speculating and ready to live my life, trust in God, love my family and friends for being awesome, and plan to let God bring this beautiful baby into the world. amen!