thursday

i can't believe that tomorrow will be one week since Raef was brought into the world. it feels like it's been so much longer than that already. i have moments where i can't fathom waiting any longer to hold him, to be able to kiss his sweet head, and just cuddle. i don't have any choice but to wait, and it's very hard! Reid and i both long for that day.

today they had us step out of the room while Raef had an x-ray. i hadn't been in the hallway before, and there was this big quilt with each patch representing a different child that didn't make it in the NICU. i wished i hadn't seen that because soon after, our doctor came by and said that Raef wasn't producing urine, and that they were very concerned about that. he's also got a little bit of fluid buildup in his abdomen again. i'd like them to get to the root of that tomorrow. by the time we left tonight around 10:00pm, they were able to get some urine by pulling his catheter out just a tiny bit. i guess those catheters are so tiny, that they can get kinked easily. how scary!

overall, it was a good day. he's requiring so much less oxygen than he was six days ago, he went from 100% to 23%. that's freaking amazing. he is such a fighter. we also found out that his upper GI tract is in working order. now, if he could only poop! they may have to examine his lower GI very soon if he doesn't.

i can't say how absolutely blessed we are enough. so many people have extended their love, support, and prayers that i'm a bit overwhelmed. it's a common feeling for me as of late. 

it's late, and we want to make it in time for rounds tomorrow so i'm going to try to sleep.